This week I have been struggling a bit and I am fighting to get back in control of my eating. I started the week out okay but I’ve been giving into a lot of temptations and cravings and I haven’t been tracking like I should. It is a stressful time of year for me and with that I usually end up comforting myself with food and it’s a cycle that I need to stop. It’s harvest time so my husband is working in the field and so we don’t see much of him. Dealing with the kids 24/7 on my own is very overwhelming for me. I get no breaks and no time to myself except for when they are in bed. So that seems to be the time where I am wanting to snack late at night.
My sister is hopefully going to come over on Saturday so hopefully I can get a little time to get to the store. That seems to be the only time I ever get to myself. But thankfully harvest started early this year since we have had no rain, so hopefully it will only be another month or so before it’s done. In the meantime I just need to work on getting my mindset back in the right place and focus on my goals. It’s so easy to get distracted and lose that momentum so I have to do everything I can to manage my stress in a better way.
It’s already the end of September and I feel bad because haven’t lost much weight at all this year. I am hoping to lose at least 15-20 lbs by the end of the year so that I can start 2021 off on a better note. My goal for this year was to not be at the same weight as I was at the end of last year. I know that in order to do that I have to focus more on tracking everything I eat, getting some exercise in at least 5-6 times a week and incorporate some treats every now and then so that I don’t feel deprived. My biggest problem is that I have the all or nothing mentality, so if I give in to a craving that I have, then I let that be an excuse to be off track all day or for several days and that leads me to a weight gain that makes me feel bad about myself. I need to learn that I can have some treats every once in a while but it doesn’t mean that I have to go crazy or anything. So I think that will be something I’m going to work on this next week, incorporating some treats throughout the week so that I don’t feel deprived and not allowing that to give me an excuse to eat whatever I want.