This past week I had a fantastic weigh in and lost over 7lbs! I did really good last week and it definitely paid off. For some reason though I always self-sabotage and if I have a good weigh in, I take that as an excuse to get off track and eat whatever I want. So although this week hasn’t been the best, I am still going to push through it and do the best I can. I know that on Saturday I might not have a big loss like I did last time, but I’m determined to not let these excuses completely derail my weight loss journey.

I keep going over and over what I could possibly be doing wrong. Because I will have a good week or two and then fall off again. And I think part of the problem is that I come up with so many excuses as to why I can’t stay on track or work out and I just have to push through the excuses and stop letting them control me. I haven’t done very well this week with working out and I am determined to establish a good daily routine so that I can work out M-F consistently.

So today I am sitting down to make a meal plan for the next two weeks and get groceries so I can go into the weekend feeling confident that I have a good plan and am stocked up on healthy food items. Weekends are sometimes hard for me because I use it as an excuse to just eat whatever I want so I need to break that cycle.

The past few months have been a huge challenge for me and I’ve basically been losing/gaining the same amount of weight and not making any progress. I think I have finally gotten to a point where I’ve realized if I don’t follow through with sticking to my WW plan, I’m going to be stuck in this place for the rest of the year.

It is already the middle of the year and I want to make some good progress over the next 6 months. So I have been going back to meal planning, pre-tracking my food in my app and exercising when I can. Right now there are no in person workshops in my area so I will just have to continue doing it online until they open. I have been trying to change things up a bit and make new things for lunch so that I don’t eat the same thing over and over. I have also realized that I need to eat something for breakfast every day so I have been having at least waffles or a bagel with some fruit in the morning with my coffee.

The weather has been gorgeous so the kids and I have been spending a lot of time outside so I’ve been getting at least 10,000 steps a day plus working out on the treadmill several days a week. I am hopeful that I can still turn things around yet this summer and I know that if I stay consistent I will be successful.

I honestly don’t know if anyone reads these posts, but I like to have somewhere to share my thoughts so that years from now I can look back and see how far I’ve come. If anyone is reading this and is feeling like giving up on their weightloss journey, please don’t give up on yourself. I know it is so hard and I’ve struggled for so long, but as long as you don’t quit, you will eventually get there.

Last week I turned 40 and I took some time to reflect on how I’ve been doing and where I’m at in my weight loss journey. I acknowledged that I have not been doing well during this time of quarantine and I’ve been using it as an excuse to eat whatever I want. And in doing so, I have gained a lot of weight in the past few months. I’m definitely upset about it and disappointed in myself. But I know that I’m the one that has made poor choices and I’m the one that can turn it around.

I know that during this time it is so difficult for most of us, and for me I feel like when I am under a lot of stress and experiencing a lot of anxiety, I turn to food to provide comfort. And I know that it’s not healthy and that I need to change my habits. So I am determined to not let this time get away from me and I’m going to focus more on taking better care of my body so that I can see the scale moving down instead of up. I know that the number on the scale shouldn’t matter so much, but to me I have been stuck in the 200s for so long and I’m really tired of being this heavy. I feel like the older I get, the harder it is going to be to lose the weight. So I need to take advantage of this time in my 40s to get healthy so that I can live longer and watch my kids grow up.

This week I have finally been feeling better, so I have been more productive with my time and I have been staying on track for the most part. I have been tracking my food and although I have gone over my points a couple of days, it wasn’t by much so I think that will make a difference when I weigh in on Saturday. This week I have been focusing on moving more and eating what I have planned. In the past it has been too easy for me to not eat what I’ve planned and just go get fast food, but I’m trying to limit eating out and making better choices.

So my husband is now in the field planting and I’m hoping that the weather stays nice so all of the crops can be planted quickly without any problems. My kids and I have been spending a lot of time outside and that definitely helps a lot. They are happy to play outside and I enjoy the fresh air and the exercise that I get. I’ve been getting a lot of steps in and I know that will make a difference in my weight loss. I’m sure that my weigh in on Saturday will finally be a loss, so I am actually looking forward to it and excited to move forward with my weight loss journey.